the art of un-learning self-will

the art of un-learning is an approach to life that has been slowly downloading for me over the last 7 years.

it started as soon as a graduated from business school at age 30 and thought i had some clarity on the direction my life would take.

little did i know, i had ZERO clue the direction life would take ME.

from reorgs, to moves, to sabbaticals, to healing journeys. almost everything i anticipated went completely left. and the things i had no clue to expect ended up being the exact changes my life needed to welcome at the exact moment they were occurring.

i could not be any more convinced that there is absolutely a supreme intelligence at play orchestrating life and all of its ongoings for each of us at any given time.

looking back at my journey to un-learn at age 30, really what i was doing was learning how to take my hands off the wheel and truly trust the higher power i believed in. shedding ego. un-learning self-will.

THAT was a VERY scary place to be. for a person who had grown up with a strong spiritual foundation, sure. but for a hyper-vigilant, high-functioning Type A over-achiever. that process nearly ended me several times. 

and it was nothing more than the emotional distress of NOT having a sense of clarity. NOT being able to articulate to others what my 5 year plan was. NOT having the false sense of control that comes when you craft a detailed plan and stick to it.

every plan i made during periods of those years just did not work out the way i'd hoped. that was such a foreign experience for me that the irony of it almost made me chuckle. to think, hmm...i wonder if i just try to have NO plan will things just start falling in place?

that's exactly what happened. pixel-by-pixel, things started to click into place when i finally released control and relaxed into the belief that i actually am blessed and highly favored. and the most aligned path for me will present itself to me in such an auspicious way that i will know it instantly when i encounter it. until then, my only job is just to enjoy being the little lamb that i am grazing in the pasture, enjoying life.

what a different approach to life than the years of toiling, planning, strategizing, working hard i had grown accustomed to?

i don't have to spell out for you which one i prefer 😏

LIFE IS GOOD. and i wish this level of peace for all of us.